Yes, Allison! I mentioned upstream how much I loved her reaction to the creepy stalking. I still really appreciate the way that, back in early s1, she would back off from Scott when he was being super weird rather than just forgiving him immediately and clutching him to her bosom.
I think part of why - most of why - I find Derek so interesting is *because* he is so messed up. I mean, has a really different view of reality from me and that makes me want to keep a wary eye on him. That he feels like he has to blackmail people into not letting him die (when he was shot with the wolfsbane, and in the pool) and he genuinely believes that if he didn't have immediate worth that they just wouldn't bother. And-- I feel like that's a viewpoint he's done to himself; I'm not sure who else could have made him feel that way. I get the impression he's just spinning the same guilt-ridden, grief-struck thoughts around in his head all day, and there's nobody there to break him out of it. And he can't let there be anybody, because look what happened last time?! Ugh, his pain is so epic.
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Date: 2012-07-28 09:15 am (UTC)I think part of why - most of why - I find Derek so interesting is *because* he is so messed up. I mean, has a really different view of reality from me and that makes me want to keep a wary eye on him. That he feels like he has to blackmail people into not letting him die (when he was shot with the wolfsbane, and in the pool) and he genuinely believes that if he didn't have immediate worth that they just wouldn't bother. And-- I feel like that's a viewpoint he's done to himself; I'm not sure who else could have made him feel that way. I get the impression he's just spinning the same guilt-ridden, grief-struck thoughts around in his head all day, and there's nobody there to break him out of it. And he can't let there be anybody, because look what happened last time?! Ugh, his pain is so epic.